Internal Conflicts

Sometimes I feel like there is a tug of war going on in my head and heart. I live in one place but sometimes I wish I was someplace else. I'm married but sometimes I don't want to be around my husband. I know I need to go out more and be more social but sometimes I just want to stay home. I know I have to visit my in laws sooner or later but again, I don't want to. What makes it harder is I don't have a lot of choices in these matters. Not a lot of good choices anyway. I'm stuck. I think these issues is what contributes to my current mental state. I'm living a life I don't want to live and there's nothing I can do about it. That's why I'm so depressed, sad, lonely and bored. I finally figured it out. I know I need to make the best of it and accept things for how they really are but there's a part of me that wishes I was someplace else, with someone else. I know that place I would be happy because I've been there before. It's called home.